maxwinter:

My business cards arrived. UV in your face.

englisch auf lehramt

als ausländerin

in deutschland

oder deutsch in dublin

und geografie?

buy a ticket to düsseldorf with pocket money

parents say no

go to german embassy anyway

they say no. no visa

go home,

skype A in düsseldorf,

draw planes on toilet paper in bathroom.

sleep.

(Source: adashofnarwhal)

tis more sensible to weep into a towel

than into kleenex

(Source: youtube.com)

you stay in your bedroom all day because you’re depressed, you wake up at 3pm and at 20-minute intervals between 12 and 3 one of three people either request that you wake up (why should you?) or scream at you to do the same.

and the thing is if you wake up, there’s nothing you can do, because it is bahrain, and there is not even sidewalk - there are shopping malls, hollywood cinemas, restaurants and other places for you to waste money. and in all of those places people stare at your hair

and if you are with your father he says so maybe you should consider changing your hairstyle. and i say the hair is not what makes me uncomfortable. it is what makes them uncomfortable.

and if you decide to “take a walk” you get hit either by a car or a canister of tear gas. knocked out - the unconventional way. i’d take a hit for bubbles while he plays in the garden, but otherwise i’d rather stay at home. and that is - in my own home.

and then they yell at you and say why did you come if all you wanted was to spend entire weeks in bed.

und darauf antworte ich auf deutsch, damit sie es nicht verstehen können und damit ich immerhin was dazu sagen kann: weil ich kein schengen-visum in montreal beantragt habe. und das weil ich auch da ganze wochen im bett verbracht habe.

berlin ich komme